Lego Crisis

4:04 pm


I'm sitting on the floor of Brother's room as he cries.


I thought I could prevent a disaster by calling him outside near me.


I was wrong.


Disaster came anyway.


And now I'm waiting near him.


I wonder about this waiting. It's all I can do right now.


Wait.


Wait.


Wait.


And hope.


And pray.


Being present.


For when he is ready.

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  1. grtlyblesdJune 7, 2020 at 11:42 AM

    I'm so sorry. Your patience is a beautiful example to me as a mother.

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