A Week, Briefly (The Baby Came!)
We tried to have school, but I was so unable to focus on anything that I gave up. I couldn't get myself to make simple assignments. Even reading aloud left me breathless and exhausted. We went on an outing on a weirdly warm January day. I left Dad with the kids at a playground and walked over 4 miles trying to kick labor into gear. No luck. My mental state of being was bad. It didn't matter what I knew with my rational mind. I was sleep-deprived, exhausted, unable to breathe, unable to think, unable to laugh or find any sort of perspective. I felt serious depression/anxiety fluttering around the edges of my brain. I recognized the signs of needing help because I've been down that road before. I needed the baby out NOW. But he didn't come out. I took the kids to their Explorer's Club meeting. We all made valentines to be delivered to local Meals on Wheels recipients. The kids churned out over 100 valentine...