Adoption: Sometimes Love Takes (A Long) Time
Again, the approach of our one-year anniversary of receiving our new children into our home had led me to lots of introspection. The week before we picked the children up I told the children we already had, "Just give it a year. Things will be really different in a year. At first it will be hard and strange, but after a year it will be okay."
I was wrong.
It is really different now than it was at first.
In many, many ways it is better.
But after a year it is not okay; it is still hard and strange.
The kids are starting to call me out for my mistake.
I haven't known what to answer except to ask, "Would you give them back?"
And my angriest children say, "Yes!"
I would not give them back . . . most of the time.
I would not give them back.
They are ours forever.
It's just taking far more time to feel that forever connection than I thought.
So I'm giving us all another year.
And perhaps, after that, another . . .